well.. nobody said it would be easy..

I try hard to be mean to people..

To.. Not to give in..

To.. Not give myself completely..

But I always do.. at least a little.. And it's so hard..

to realize I've been double crossed and back stabbed..

Or simply to realize I'm not as important to someone as that person is to me..

On a day to day basis.. It matters..

And it hurts..

A lot!